As I celebrated my 39th birthday, I reflected on the year that had just gone by… I thought about all of the joys and all of the disappointments, I thought about where our family has been and where we are going, I thought about how much the kids have grown and all that they have learned. As I was thinking about it all, I thought about a passage in the Bible. Esther 4:14b says, “Yet who knows whether you have come to the kingdom for such a time as this?” I believe that we can all relate that verse to our own lives. “Who knows whether you have come to this State… City… school… job… etc…. for such a time as this?” The Lord put us where we are for a reason. We are here, in this very place, at this very moment, because He has a plan for us here…right where we are.
As I have spent so much of my time, over the past year, grumbling about my circumstances, I have forgotten to ask God why He has me here. What does He want me to do with my “such a time as this”?
As I homeschool my kids, as we go to co-op, as we go to church and Wednesday night activities, as I go to work, as I make dinner and wash laundry, as I snuggle with Adrian and watch a movie, as I cuddle with a sick wee one in the late hours of the night, as I watch for Adrian to come home from work… in all things, I will ask the Lord what His plan is for my “such a time as this.”
THIS TIME…. This time that God has given me…. I will use it to bring Him glory. I will use it to show Jesus to others through me. I will stop wasting my “such a time as this.”
Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He shall direct your paths.